i know i'll wait all day for you.

i wish i wasn't always a sucker. 

i  may always speak sarcastically. 

but really i wear my heart on my sleeve. 

and your breaking it. 

i'm always waiting for people. 

i always believe in people. 

i believe people even when i 

know they're lying. 

and i hate myself. 

i hate you for making me this way. 

i just always wanted to believe in you. 

i wanted to believe you really wanted me. 

so i started believing  everyone. 

i have high hopes even though they always get crushed. 

even though in the back of my mind i'm always telling 

myself that it will never happen. 

i can't help the ignorance in me.  

i'm scared to call because i 

don't want to be "overzealous"  

yeah i know what that means. 

ever since that day i get scared 

to become too attached to anyone. 

i try not to be too nice to anyone 

because i don't want anyone to ever 

think that about me again. 

"would it kill you to care as much as i did?"